Growing up, Nichole and her family knew she was different; something just seemed “off.” But she wouldn’t get diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder until she was 20 years old. As a young child, she assumed everyone was having a similar inner experience to hers, so she didn’t even think to ask for help. Her parents didn’t understand how much was going on in her brain. During a manic episode, Nichole left home and moved in with a boy several hours away. When the mania subsided, she found herself in the deepest depression of her life. She took herself to the hospital many times, and was turned away every time before finally getting admitted for attempting suicide and being taken home by her parents.
Laura Messner grew up in a typical home until her parents divorced when she was eight years old. After she became aware of how little she got to see her father, she began chasing after perfection in every way she could think of to “earn” his attention… until she developed an eating disorder and eventually attempted suicide. She came to learn self-love and to take responsibility for her own pain and healing journey. As a teenager, she resisted help because she was unwilling to admit that everything inside was not perfect. It wasn’t until her late twenties that she came to understand that her struggles stemmed from the pain she felt from seeing herself as a victim of her father’s abandonment.
As 2020 comes to a close, we continue discussing our ability to harness the power of resilience that can be accomplished when focusing with gratitude. It is crucial to learn how to shield ourselves and create boundaries from things that are harmful to us and to become aware of our triggers. We learn to say “no” things that will hurt us and give ourselves permission to ask, “Is what I’m going to do going to help me in my recovery, or is it going to set me back”.
After having seven episodes of psychosis and Bipolar I over the course of five years, Zahava List finally got through five years without a single episode. During those five years, she started an organization called Chazkeinu, which offers a support group to Jewish women and their families who are dealing with mental illness.
As the end of 2020 nears, Matana reflects back on the changes, growth and hurdles that we’ve seen and learned from. Inspired from the positive moments, we focus on the power of resilience and our commitment to keeping this attribute a constant thread in the fabric that weaves us.
In this episode, we discuss lamenting how children going back to school, both because we miss their time together and the new restrictions they face in their day to day. We all have choices, and each family has to handle how they make their choices.
Marissa joins us in our continuing series of mental health in the workplace, describing the impact felt at having spent 15 years working at and leaving today’s top tech giants. She has since conducted talks for thousands of people in the US, Europe, and Asia-Pacific, at companies and universities such as Google, Twitter, Pace University, New School, American Express, and more. She share her frustration with the corporate workplace whose power struggle environment stifles life core values that could have been an asset to the company, and instead become a toxic competition instead of thriving.
Our guest, Olya Hill, is the founder of Living Notes. Olya is a former dancer, now a creative director, and the mother of seven children. She is a beautiful soul that believes in energy and positive mindset. She believes in womens’ empowerment, choosing ourselves as humans, being authentic and evolving with life.
We are kicking off this conversation by speaking with online entrepreneur and speaker, Maley Jaxx, who in just a few short years transitioned from her career to being in the public eye with her very popular brand and online presence. During all of this professional change, she was also experiencing a very difficult time in her personal life as her marriage was coming to an end.
We continue the second part of our episode with Aliza Bulow, whose son Dani, died by suicide. Due to his diagnosed extreme depression and bipolar, Dani’s constant mantra since the age of 5 was that he did not want to live or be alive. As a loving parent walking on tiptoes, Aliza was constantly petrified of the day Dani would take his own life. She shares with us the intimate thoughts only a mother could, with extreme respect, love and fear of her son’s wishes and the truth of how he didn’t want to kill himself, he just didn’t want to be alive.